Today i realized that what i wanted all this time is NOT what i need.
i know that this so cliche but seriously, i need to reevaluate my and push piece out that do not belong. people who only want what they need, always taking, never giving. I think the reason I'm so utterly mad is because the people who need to excluded are people who share the same chromosomes. people who gave me life, and also drain it out of me. Ex's who have long went on. Stupid ass, nonchalant,bitchass, euro centric mofo who never deserved my tears. Life, my life deserves more. what's important? not this shit that's for sure!
Hello good morning
Trice
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oM4wvq8MtHA
19.10.09
15.10.09
Am i willing?
You have to be willing to be vulnerable. if you worship a man, then your faith can always be shaken. But if you worship ideals and concepts you will always be fine. Forget about the "people". What did they stand for? Do you believe in it?
Focus on what's meaningful in your life..
Don't worry about how people see you..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q8dK0iEzi1M
Focus on what's meaningful in your life..
Don't worry about how people see you..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q8dK0iEzi1M
Free Write 9/18/09
S. Ma'at: Now Shontrice, How tired are we of you "saying" what your going to accomplish shit? How tired are are we fantasizing about writing a book? traveling? Of marrying Idris Alba?
Shontrice: I know! I know! it'sjust that my dreams fell better when they're in my head. In my head i can't fail. in my head i always win. I see my victory.
S.Ma'at: Okay but everything you want will always be in your head. Never to come into reality, is that what you want? To forever dream? Never do?
Shontrice: I will always dream. I always piece together what is i want in my mind before i act, playing out scenarios before i jump in into the fire. Don't you?
S. Ma'at: Well of course. But only for so long. the pain of not accomplishing makes me ache, and my eyes water; don't you fell the pain Shontrice?
Shontrice: Sometimes
S.Ma'at: Quit lying you fell it all the time. When you drop a class you KNOW you need to graduate, when you use you siblings as a crutch, when you stay in the apartment for days and turn down advances because of fear of disappointment. Oh you fell it. That undescribable itch or twitch when you don't complete the goals you set out..that me trying to get your attention.
Shontrice: How can you be so sure?
S.Ma'at: I'm sure because you are sure. I know these things because you know these things.
Shontrice: What if i told you I'm afraid
S.Ma'at: I would say to you, so am i. But that will never stop my progress, the creator built me to overcome obstacles. I am because you are, you are because i am
Shontrice: Who are you?
S.Ma'at: votre âme
Shontrice: I know! I know! it'sjust that my dreams fell better when they're in my head. In my head i can't fail. in my head i always win. I see my victory.
S.Ma'at: Okay but everything you want will always be in your head. Never to come into reality, is that what you want? To forever dream? Never do?
Shontrice: I will always dream. I always piece together what is i want in my mind before i act, playing out scenarios before i jump in into the fire. Don't you?
S. Ma'at: Well of course. But only for so long. the pain of not accomplishing makes me ache, and my eyes water; don't you fell the pain Shontrice?
Shontrice: Sometimes
S.Ma'at: Quit lying you fell it all the time. When you drop a class you KNOW you need to graduate, when you use you siblings as a crutch, when you stay in the apartment for days and turn down advances because of fear of disappointment. Oh you fell it. That undescribable itch or twitch when you don't complete the goals you set out..that me trying to get your attention.
Shontrice: How can you be so sure?
S.Ma'at: I'm sure because you are sure. I know these things because you know these things.
Shontrice: What if i told you I'm afraid
S.Ma'at: I would say to you, so am i. But that will never stop my progress, the creator built me to overcome obstacles. I am because you are, you are because i am
Shontrice: Who are you?
S.Ma'at: votre âme
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